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Name: Alen Albert
Country: Philippines
Metro: Manila
Gender: Male


Interests: Using your mind to contemplate the infinite is like trying to paint a room while standing in the hallway peeking through the keyhole. hhahahahahah!!!!!!!! well... i'm a bum with the capacity to really do nothing, well thats what bums like me do.. ehheehe... i like to write.. i plan to be a journalist but they won't let me.. well. its ok.. i like to sing although earthquakes often happen when i do.. i play soccer... i also play the guitar, i actually studied it.. i like my job.. i hope i can keep it.. uYy, i like being sentimental.. i dnt knw why but i do...
Expertise: expertise?? i dnt knw.. my job has taught me lots of stuff.. linux, flash, photo shop, ad a bunch of other programs..(weeeee!!! learning and earning money at the same time!!!) but i guess my main expertise is writing.. either poetry, essay, or stories that's where i stand out.. most of the time..(weeeeeeeeeee!!! at last! something i'm good at!) ehehhhehe....
Occupation: Customer service/support
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Sunday, December 03, 2006

deadly...

despite my best efforts, it all remained futile.. and sad pa din... nakakasar...

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Rebound

by Silent Sanctuary

O kay bilis naman
Magsawa ng puso mo
Ganyan ka ba talaga
Bigla nalang naglalaho

Para bang walang nangyari
Di mo man lang sinabi

Sana’y hindi nalang pinilit pa
Wala ring patutungahan
Kahit sabihin ko pang
Mahal kita

Nalulungkot, nayayamot, nagmumukmok
Hindi ko pa yata kaya pang
Labanan ang damdamin ko

Nakakainis talaga
Nagmuhkha tuloy akong tanga
Pinaasa mo kasi
Puso ko ngayon tuloy lumuluha

Dahil iniwan mo kong mag-isa
Limang araw lang ay babay na

Sana’y hindi nalang pinilit pa
Wala ring patutungahan
Kahit sabihin ko pang
Mahal kita

Nalulungkot, nayayamot, nagmumukmok
Hindi ko pa yata kaya pang
Labanan ang damdamin ko

Rebound mo lang pala ako


Monday, November 27, 2006

cant say anything more... its just sad..

Intro]
I don't understand why
See it's burning me to hold onto this
I know this is something I gotta do
But that don't mean I want to
What I'm trying to say is that I-love-you I just
I feel like this is coming to an end
And its better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you
I gotta let it burn

[Verse 1]
It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's comin from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think you're gonna change
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby
Plus theres so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn

[Chorus]
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

[Verse 2]
Sendin' pages I ain't supposed to
Got somebody here but I want you
Cause the feelin ain't the same find myself
Callin' her your name
Ladies tell me do you understand?
Now all my fellas do you feel my pain?
It's the way I feel
I know I made a mistake
Now it's too late
I know she ain't comin back
What I gotta do now
To get my shorty back
Ooo ooo ooo ooooh
Man I don't know what I'm gonna do
Without my booo
You've been gone for too long
It's been fifty-leven days, um-teen hours
Imma be burnin' till you return (let it burn)

[Chorus]
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn (let it burn, let it burn, you gon'learn)
Let it burn (gotta let it burn)
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know its best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

[Bridge]
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (ooooh)
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (yeah)

[Breakdown]
Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh oooh
Ooh ooh oooh (can ya feel me burnin'?)
Ooh ooh ooh oooh ooh oooh

So many days, so many hours
I'm still burnin' till you return

[Chorus]
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn


Tuesday, November 21, 2006

love doesn't hurt, until you think about how much things have changed, who you've lost, and how much

*There's no reason for me to be sad.. you didn't care.. so neither should I.. even though i feel pain inside..i'm gone hide it 'coz it's not worth being sad over.. 'coz i didn't mean a thing to you.. not for one moment.. not one bit..

*I guess i thought you would be here forever, another illusion i chose to create..

*i like walking in the rain because no one knows im crying..

*i'm such a liar when i smile

*you will never know how many times i've laid in my bed all night just thinking how much you much you mean to me and how much i love you. but i bet you never thought of me.. not even once..

*love doesn't hurt, until you think about how much things have changed, who you've lost, and how much of this was your fault

*while they danced, how she holds him, pulls him close, while he counts the days till he lets her go.. the same old story.. that everyone knows.. one heart is holding and the other letting go..

*it hurts when we risk our hearts and it ends up getting broken, but what hurts even more is when we still hold on when we already know we are waiting for nothing.

*in a moment everything can change

*it's easy to fall inlove, it's just hard to find someone who'll catch you..


Thursday, November 16, 2006

hands down..

im happy.. not happy as in HAPPY, pero happy, just "happy.." no let me correct that, "hapi"...

as usual i have nothing better to do at home, only boring myself to death..

im keeping myself busy, im not quite satisfied with my life, coz i think something's missing.. i'm not quite sure of what..

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Hands Down

by: Dashboard Confessional

Breathe in for luck breathe in so deep this air is blessed you share with me this
night is wild so calm and dull these hearts they race
from self control your legs are smooth
as they graze mine we're doing fine we're doing nothing at all.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me, so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst or break or bury or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.
The words are hushed lets not get busted,
just lay entwined here undiscovered.
Safe from the earth and all the stupid questions..
"hey did you get some?" Man, that is so dumb.
Stay quiet, stay near, stay close they can't hear, so we can get some.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me, so I die happy. My
heart is yours to fill or burst or break or bury or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.
Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember,
I'll always remember the sound of the stereo,
the dim of the soft lights,
the scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers and
the time on the clock when we realized
it's so late and the walk that we shared together.
The street was wet and the gate was locked
so I jumped it and let you in and you stood at the door
with your hands on my waist and you kissed me,
but you meant it and I knew that you meant it,
that you meant it, that you meant it,
and I knew, that you meant it, that you meant it.


Monday, November 13, 2006

sadness trip...

almost all people i knw right now are sad.. including me... what the heck is going on?

yesterday, got a lot of DVDs and just watched away to the wee hours of the night.. the movies i got were effing tragedies.. ahaahaha just matching the movies with my world's mood..

a lot of broken hearts around me, its good i already started to pick up the pieces of my shattered "life"..

also a lot of regret going around people's minds lately.. wonder if i'm going to regret staying here..

while watching romeo and juliet starring leonardo de carpio(right?), my fried mind saw a pattern, often times people become sad, so that someone will cheer them up(hopely, the one who they want to, will be the one cheering them up..)

a few days ago, i started missing somebody.. i hope that person misses me too..(ü)



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